"...Grows as God causes it to grow"

I went on a women's retreat recently and our theme verse was Colossians 2:19 in which I was reminded that the body "grows as God causes it to grow".  God used just these words to remind me that Trae is growing how He caused him to grow.  I can't worry about how he grows because God has caused him to grow the way that he is growing.  I don't think that I worry about his growth anymore but I do worry about how to care for him  I want to make sure that he is going to receive all the best services so that he reaches his potential.  I have to remember though that what I think his potential and what God's potential for him may be different so when things don't turn out the way I think they should its because God has a different plan than mine.

So now that you have been updated some of the things that have been swimming around in my head it's time for the update about Trae's development.  In the last blog we had an ultrasound with Dr. J and weren't really pleased with the information (or lack of information) that we received.  Dr. Welt agreed to see us to ensure that everything is going well.  Trae is growing well.  His organs are developing normally as they have been.  Trae was moving quite quickly during this ultrasound.  Dr. Welt was able to get a good measurement of his femur (thigh bone) and this has caught up.  If you remember there was some concern that it as short.  We were very thankful for this.  Due to the Trae's quick movement it was hard to see his bottom leg bones though so there is some question about the cause of the swelling in his feet.  The swelling has not increased which is also a praise.  There was some thought about the swelling being caused by the leg bones being too far apart which would affect the development of the cartilage that would form his knees but Dr. Welt explained that it is really hard to tell why his feet are swollen.  This will most likely have to wait until his birth to determine accurately.  So really everything is going very well! We are starting to discuss delivery as it was explained that there is not a lot of information about how to get a child without arms out of the womb.  I would really like to have a vaginal birth but there are some things that could affect this.  First he has been breech for most of our ultrasounds and they won't allow me deliver my first child breech.  Then there is question as to whether his shoulders would cooperate even if he is positioned correctly (explained by Dr. Sarkodie during my appointment on Monday 4/23).  As we continue to pray for everything to remain in God's will for Trae's growth we will also be praying about discerning God's will about a healthy delivery. 

I had my sugar test - I failed the one hour test.  Then I sat through the three hour one but I passed this so no diabetes for this girl! Dr. Sarkodie explained that this sometimes indicates that there is something developmentally wrong with the baby's shoulders...I think we figured that out without the sugar testing :) 

Thomas and I are finding the humor in our situation and I know some of you may not be ready for this yet but we feel that this helps us to remain positive (we want this to also encourage you all as well).  Proverbs 31:25 says "She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come" so this lets me know that our humor is a characteristic that is pleasing to God as we learn to follow him in the path that he is laid before us.